Month: January 2013

Awakening- pleasing God or yourself?

About a year ago, I helped host a 24/hr prayer and fast. In those two months, I learned one major thing. Revival will come to Gallaudet, it’s just a matter of time and when God come reigning in by pouring a vast amount of spiritual water to help grow and flourish in HIs Kingdom.

This year, is called the year of the awakening where revival is possible and without a doubt. God has revealed a few things on my heart in this time of need for both my life and the spiritual awakening of the campus I serve.

I began reading Not a Fan by Kyle Idleman, who questions if you are a fan of Jesus or a follower of Jesus. I’m about half-way (both a fan and follower). In a very humbling way, my eyes are focused on Jesus. But in a not so humbling reality, I still yearning for something that seems lacking, in other words, I have yet to search certain areas of my relationship with Christ.

It’s like looking at a long-term relationship with someone, but am I making the full commitment in the relationship? Even though I am beginning to get serious with someone, I question where I am on the relationship scale with Jesus (I know I shouldn’t compare, but where am I really?) Am I giving everything I have? Am I following worldly things or pleasing only God?

Ironically, I watched the recent episode of Switched at Birth on ABC Family and at the end of the episode, Daphne hopelessly falls in love with a new guy that liked her. Does she really like him or is she searching for something missing in her life and looking to please the person by being manipulative?

In the end, we’re searching to please ourselves more than God.

I decided this year, I would begin to read the entire Bible once again from beginning to end. After completing Genesis, I moved on to Exodus and I’m quickly discovering that God has called out and teaching me more about His powers in healing. Not just physical but emotionally. And more so about stepping up in faith. The more I read His words, the more I become hungry or thirsty for God.

Though my contracted job ended six months early, I learned that He is the true provider by enabling people to become a part of my life and reveal Himself.

In retrospect, I’m LEARNING to be a follower and not wanting to be a FAN.

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Changing your hat

If you had a chronic disorder/disease, how would you feel if your hat was suddenly changed in a matter of days? Do you believe this to be possible?

When I was two years old,  my sister jumped on the back of my tricycle and I flipped off, hitting my head on the pavement. My mother rushed me to the ER to make sure I didn’t have a concussion. The doctor told my mother I was a tough cookie and was just fine. Not too long after that, our lives changed.

I was jumping on the bed when suddenly my entire body fell and starting seizing and I was rushed to the ER once more. The doctors had no idea what was wrong and released me. It wasn’t until I was six years old before I was finally diagnosed with a seizure disorder. The doctors told us, I would NEVER outgrow them.

Since then, I have been taking medications for it (literally tried every one of them in the medicine cabinet) and nothing worked. I have been hospitalized numerous times, both because of seizures and the side effects to medications.

Last week I spent a week in the Epilepsy Monitor Unit and under the care of an epileptologist. After a week of nothing showing up on the EEG and blood tests, he declared me Epilepsy free and no longer have to take medications.

Yesterday, I took my medical bracelet off for the first time in years. While I do need to replace it to list my allergies, it was the first step to freedom of knowing I don’t have Epilepsy anymore.

The doctors say there is a possibility of still having seizures, but it seems it doesn’t happen often enough to call it Epilepsy.

Only God would make such a thing possible and honestly, the idea of changing my hat and completely and identifying myself in Christ is the only thing that makes Him worth all the while. God is amazing, and only He is ABLE.

I want to thank everyone for their prayers, their kindness and friendship and believing nothing is impossible with God. (Luke 1:37)

Leaving it all behind in 2013

It’s a brand new year, which means great things are happening already and it’s not even day seven!

I had a meeting today to begin my internship with a campus ministry when students come back to campus, and I already have tons of homework to do, but without a doubt, I’m praying for God to continue to move the ministry in ways we never expected including many visions we’ve all been prophesying.

I also recently started dating, totally unexpected before 2012 ended and God has blessed our relationship (I could go on with stories)! I pray as we continue to know each other and we’ll grow together in God. (Even in the most awkward moments possible, those are usually the best).

He and I at the United State Botanical Garden
He and I at the United State Botanical Garden

Starting January 14th, I will be beginning the Daniel’s Fast for 21 days along with many of my church family, this could give me an opportunity to work on some of the barriers possibly allowing God to anoint me for the next year as I seek to serve Him.

Ironically, one of the pastors of our church this weekend spoke on Re-calibrating. If we do this, we can seek everything God has already pursued us to do so by letting everything go. With this in mind, I pray for God’s wisdom and so thankful for His grace for being so very patient with us.

If you’re excited as I am for an expectant 2013, would love to know more about it!

If you’re interested in receiving my mission letter or possibly speaking to you about campus ministry,  hit me up.