A few weeks ago, I participated in the church’s fasting as a way to grow closer and a way to better serve God and the church. As a result, I had decided to continue it for another 21 days right after my 27th birthday. However, it was ended shortly due to my health that could have ended badly. (That’s a story for another day).
During this time, I grew and learned quite a lot. I literally became a living revelation in God’s eyes, giving opportunities to constantly rise up to God’s challenges.
When I was 21 and baptized, the only thing I mentioned was I was prepared to take on any challenge God would put in my path. The goes without saying that God is very merciful when I began to taste what He has been preparing me for.
I went from being this person who tried too hard, dying to impress others and never felt contentment which led me to live a lifestyle unpleasant to God. I often hid and thought I was hiding from God, but He already saw me, knew me (and as scary as it is) He was secretly waiting for me to come out of hiding.
One of my favorite children’s books when I was younger, is called Jacob’s Rescue. When a kid thought it was safe to be who he was but ended up going in hiding because he couldn’t rightfully call himself a Jew. In the end survived. When I think of Jacob’s story, it reminds me of what I’m really hiding from but somehow work through it and survive.
In the past few weeks, God decided to rise me up to the challenge a little more. With time, finances and much more.
Confession: I never really looked at my finances in terms of what to do with it or how I considered it. In college, I was living from paycheck to paycheck; when working a blue-coller job (but hey- it paid the rent), employers in that field don’t always give you the benefit of a doubt on hours, even when working and going to school full time. But learning now what I didn’t know back then, forced me to realize that it’s not about what was mine, not even the time given. I have regrets but at least today I can start all over again and keep working to where I’m supposed to be.
I find myself pinching my skin when I walk towards or near the nations Capitol, but lately, I’ve been pinching myself when I pray. Not that I don’t believe this isn’t real, but sometimes I can’t believe these things happen. One moment I’m in D.C., the next God is asking me to do things unexpectedly but not impossible. At least it’s not a minefield although sometimes it seems that way.
The year of 2013 is shaping up for more exciting adventures as I rise up to these many challenges, and I’m excited and cannot wait to share more.
Tune back soon!
If you’re in the D.C. area and looking for something to do on April 19th and 20h, check out the Beautiful You Conference happening where God empowers women in our era. I’ll be there, will you?