Month: January 2014

Beautiful Mess

daughter-dancing-fathers-feetI love the idea of dancing on Abba’s feet. I love the idea of waltzing across the dance room. I used to immerse myself in my school and work and was always busy. It was my escape, my only way to avoid confronting my problems which were real, but wasn’t a realistic way to deal with them. But recently, I’ve been learning how to confront my issues and working through them. Learning how to apologize and times to thankful. I’m learning when to be joyful (or have the funny bug) and times to grieve. I’m learning to dance with Abba, in all the walks of life. He embraces me intimately through the good and bad and I just want to fall in love with Him.

Since I’ve become an independent missionary and then joining Youth With  A Mission, I’ve had to learn a lot along the way. I’m just wrapping up a season of discovering my voice and learning how to use it. Now I’m finally embracing it (still learning) but making it a healthy lifestyle to express my true feelings. For both the broken world and with God. I am now entering a season of reconciliation. Healing my heart through using my voice and healing my relationships. I know there will be bumps in the road but I also know, the reconciliation will only bring glory to God. I’m not just fighting for my kingdom but my birthright. God made us, and because of Adam and Eve, we’ve become a beautiful mess.

With God, anything is possible.


Gather around…

It’s New Years Eve and I sit near the fireplace with new people in my life and trying to defeat to get to the next level on Candy Crush. Occasionally interrupted and taking the risk to get to know them and enjoy their presence as we enter 2014. 

“What’s your New Years Resolution?” someone asked.

“New Years Resolution? Well, I’m not crazy about them but just live this year and take more risks.  I’m sticking with something more realistic,” I said.

Realistic is as it comes and what brings life. Practicality can bring us closer to God than if we don’t do anything.  The next day, driving back to the city, I began to pray for what the new year brings. I came across Proverbs 4:20-22:
“My son (child), be attentive to my words;
    incline your ear to my sayings.
Let them not escape from your sight;
    keep them within your heart.
For they are life to those who find them,
    and healing to all their[a] flesh.

I belong in a place where I remember how God works in my life. If I live by His truth, it will affect everything I believe in and how I pray.

I believe this is year where more changes will be happening. I’m asking God for more, and not just more but encouraging me to take risks to understand our purpose in life. Which other verses that I came across mentioned are to testify God’s truth, even if He’s being denounced. 

I’m excited for 2014 as much as I was for 2013. I hope you are as well and willing gather to do more for God in an expectant New Years.