About a few days ago, I discovered a former classmate, Kayla Mueller, from college had been killed by an airstrike by Syria. But the ISIS was the one who was holding her hostage for ransom money. She was serving the best way she knew how and serving meant being in the front line of the unknown helping people escape war.
If I never felt personally connected or affected by ISIS, although I’ve been affected by the way in the middle east because of my brothers. But this time, it’s hitting close to home. I didn’t really know Kayla, but I remember seeing her around campus and in some classes we had together.
I spent a couple hours weeping in the prayer room, trying to make sense of her death. I found some comfort and peace knowing she was found but I also felt broken. She only wanted to live, and didn’t want to give up. She could have chosen to stay behind in America and just helped women in shelters but she wanted to do more. Things that most people would be terrified of. How could she has been taken and then accidentally killed by an airstrike intended to kill the enemy?
As I prayed about this situation and asking God how to respond, I felt I needed to read Joshua 1:9:
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
I can only imagine in the moment of her death when she was fighting for her life and was suddenly taken. But she knew something, she knew God was with her and she had not given up on her faith. These words spoke life over me as I began to feel some sense of peace in my own heart.
God doesn’t want us to live in fear but to know and trust He is with us. Joshua himself was on the front lines fighting but men were afraid to fight and numerous times, Joshua emphasized not to be afraid but to be courageous. Go and fight for what’s rightfully yours. In this case, the ISIS is NOT claiming to take my life, even though they may have taken Kayla’s. But I refuse to live in fear but to be courageous. Why? Because I know my God is with me and I will fight on the front lines if it means bringing His Kingdom here.
Kayla’s death is not in vain. It taught me the value of God’s Kingdom. Let’s fight this battle and not allow Satan to take hold on what is rightfully ours.